Work In Progress

I will be working on my domain all weekend long. So if you notice anything iffy, just don’t pay any attention until atleast Sunday evening or until I say so. Thanks.

Ugh when will I get better!

I am STILL not over my sickness. I missed Monday night which was a test night and even Wednesday night class. On Tuesday I went to the doctor and got some medicine. My doctor put me back on an inhaler which freaking sucks. I feel like I’m that sick kid again who won’t get to enjoy their childhood because while everyone else is outside playing she’s too busy being sick. Ugh. The really sucky thing is one of my prescriptions was $114 in itself. Thank God my mom paid for my medicine. My mom just wants me to get better.

On Wednesday, we went to Sears and purchased a treadmill. It won’t be here until this coming Monday since the store didn’t carry the one we wanted and it wouldn’t be delivered to our local store until Monday morning. So hooray. Too bad I have class Monday so I won’t get to go with my mom and my sister to pick it up. Grr. We have to use my mom’s car because my back seats don’t fold down. I’m excited to have the treadmill so I can finally start losing some weight. Bout damn time!

So anyways I was busy today. I actually signed onto instant messengers and chatted with some friends! I missed them so much! <3 Love to all my net friends because you all have truly changed my life. Whenever I feel alone I know I have ya’ll to turn to! So that got me feeling really nice tonight and not to mention I coded a new theme. I’m working on installing some new WP hacks and will have that up ASAP. Also, I am putting my hosting plan prices on my domain probably unless by some miraculous event, I get Hostaxia up and running this weekend. You never know, that might happen. The revenue from Hostaxia plus PPP is what is going to fund my next tuition payment. So if you need cheap domain hosting, look no further! Lol. So anyways it’s going on 3 AM so I think it’s time for me to hit the hay! Night. Later gator.

Bitch Day!

Ever had a bitch day? Today I am in a complete bitchy mood for no apparent reason other than it’s that time of the month and my throat is killing me. I woke up this morning sick to my stomach and spitting up snot. Eww. I can’t stand this. I can’t breathe and I can’t swallow and I really want some broccoli casserole I made last night but what’s the point when I can’t taste it.

On the upside, I made a new theme. Just gotta code it and fix the CSS to my liking. So maybe I’ll have it up tomorrow and maybe not. I still have homework and studying to do. Ugh. So much to do so little time. I don’t like feeling like I don’t have enough time in the day to get the things I NEED to get done completed. It makes me feel like a failure. But anyways, gotta finish getting dressed since that’s what I told my mom and Court I was doing. So later gator.

My poor throat!

You know what I really hate more than anything in this world?? BEING SICK!! My little sister, Selena, has had a throat ache and a cough for the past few days. Well before she got really bad evidently she drank out of my glass and I of course drank after she did so guess who’s sick now? Yup, me. My mom is too. Lol. That little girl loves to take a sip from everyone’s glass but these past few days I’ve said no since I didn’t want to get sick even though here I am sick. Pfft. My throat is on fire and my ears hurt like the dickens. The weird thing is my nose isn’t really stuffed but man does my face hurt. I know it’s my sinuses since everytime I seem to have sinus issues my face hurts and is sore.

The reason I hate being sick is because when I was little, I was sick all the time. The first few months of my life was spent in the hospital because I was too sick/weak to come home. I had asthma and allergies so I spent a lot of time in and out of doctor’s offices. Every time the weather changed, I was sick and considering I live in Georgia, the weather changes frequently since Mother Nature can’t seem to decide what season she’d like to be in. I have been on a countless number of antibiotics, cough syrups, and inhalers through out my life to the point I hate taking medicine. Like right now, I have to take a pill everyday of my life for the rest of my life if I don’t want to eventually die at an early age. Me and pills do not get along. If it’s not my thyroid, it’s my allergies! The really sad thing is after taking an allergy test.. I wasn’t allergic to anything they tested me for. That’s the sad thing. Being allergic to something but not knowing what is very scary!

So I will go ahead and end my rant now. I have to get dressed and head out to get groceries and run errands with my mom. So as usual, later gator.

Stop Haunting Me!!

There are things in my life that I really don’t want to remember. Well, more people than actual things. These people and the events surrounding their presence in my life I wish to heck I could forget. I wish we had an eraser where we could erase parts of our memory. I know these events made me a stronger person but it’s not worth reliving them every time I see or think about something relating to them and then it’s like all those old emotions come rushing over me!

I had really bad dreams last night. So bad I must have been talking out loud because my mom woke me up and asked if I was okay. It’s kinda weird because in the middle of my dreams Court came home from work and wrapped his arms around me to go to sleep and that little insignificant thing made me feel a little better and gather the courage in my dream to finally confront this person. Too bad it wasn’t in real life but when I woke up, I felt like a certain weight has been lifted off of me. I feel like for once I beat him at his own game, I called the shots, and I hurt him by telling him exactly what I thought instead of him always hurting me. So I guess part of my courage came from the comfort of knowing I have a man in my life that is far from perfect and can act like a complete ass at times but when I truly need him, even if I don’t tell him, he’s there for me and I know he loves me. Maybe this dream is what I needed to end the constant struggle to fix my past that goes on in my head on a daily basis. I hope so.

Anyways, not really much else to say. I have to call my school in two weeks to see if I get the Pell Grant like I am hoping and praying that I did!! So wish me all luck. And today after browsing through blogs of my friends (I always lurk and don’t comment because I have kinda been out of sorts lately) I realized that life is going on around me and I’ve been keeping myself all sheltered away from friends and people who care about me like a turtle hiding in it’s shell. It really kinda gave me a kick in the ass to start reaching out to my friends because I know they care. So hopefully this weekend can be filled with homework, family, Court, and catching up with all of my buddies that I’ve missed so much!! So with that said, later gator.