Reminiscing Old Friends

The other day, I was watching 28 days which is about this woman who gets totally wasted at her sister’s wedding, steals a limo, and then wrecks it. She is then given the choice of prison or going to a drug and alcohol rehab center. She obviously picks rehab but refuses to really take part in any of the treatments there at the facility. Finally after getting to know some of the others in the treatment center, she realizes she does have a problem and starts cleaning up her life.

It stars Sandra Bullock who is one of my favorite actresses. The big surprise for me was Viggo Mortensen. I have never found him attractive at all, in fact, one of my old net friends was a major Viggo fan. Jo, the net friend, went on and on about how hot he is but I never saw it until I saw this movie. I must say, maybe Jo was right.

Speaking of old net friends, it’s funny how a movie can make you think of old friends. I’ve come to realize how many friends I have distanced myself from in the past year. I used to enjoy posting at forums and swapping e-mails back and forth with quite a few people but lately, I don’t even want to talk to people. I think all of this started in the last part of mine and my ex’s relationship. It was when the abuse started and I just retreated inside of myself instead of leaning on others for support. I mean, how can you just tell a friend, “oh hey, by the way, my boyfriend abuses me and I feel like a weak, worthless person afterwards,” because that is definitely not something I could work into conversation. I think a lot of my offline friends knew but online it was easier to pretend things were all peachy keen.

In fact, I miss a lot of the people I used to talk to. I still lurk on some boards but I feel afraid to make the first step back into reacquainting myself with them again. There is so much I’d have to explain and it’d leave me feeling raw afterwards. There are so many things in my past I try to just block out and forget. So my question to all you lovelies is have you ever lost contact with someone you really never wanted to lose contact with? If so, have you ever started contact with that person and tried to patch up the relationship? If so, how? I guess I’m tired of being anti-social and after almost a year since the downward spiral also known as my former life started, I’m finally ready to pick up the pieces since I am over it all. I’m ready to move on and be happy and most of this is thanks to the current boyfriend who is more than a boyfriend, he’s a friend.

So anyways, I have a lot of cleaning to do since the boyfriend will be here tonight. I’ve been washing clothes since I had a clothes explosion in my bedroom floor so that is why I have to clean. Grrr. I hate cleaning. So until next time, later lovelies!

Thyroid is of the devil

I am feeling much better today. It rained last night so most of the pollen washed away thankfully. Actually scratch that, it stormed last night. I kept having to unplug the computer because between storms I’d hook my computer back up so I could finish some of the coding I was doing only to have to unplug it 30 minutes later. I am definitely stressing the “Kate needs a laptop” point now.

The real thing that cheered me up last night was talking to the boyfriend. Goodness, I missed his voice. I know that sounds completely stupid since we usually talk every day but we haven’t really talked talked in a couple of days. We talked last night about random things and then our usual joking is what made me feel a whole lot better. I love that boy a lot. I am really beginning to think this is what real love is about. With him, I can go a day or two without talking to him and not stress because I honestly trust him completely. He is a good guy that puts my mind to ease at all times. I love that about him and he is so caring and genuine. He is respectful and fits in with my family which is definitely a plus. He’s the type of guy that if he unintentionally offends or hurts your feelings, he apologizes right on the spot and tries to correct the situation. He is just easy to get along with and it’s comfortable being around him. I also can’t complain in the romance or even kissing departments either. *blush* He is definitely a keeper and this time around, everyone is telling me this instead of me just thinking this on my own so that’s a good sign.

So anyways, enough with the mushy stuff, I have a job interview tomorrow and I thought it was at eleven so I scheduled my hair appointment at one thinking I’d have time to get from one place to the next. Well it turns out my interview is at one so I have to get up early, take my mom to the hair appointment and then catch my interview. After the interview, I can go get my hair done as well. Luckily the interview place and hair place are like five minutes apart. I just really need this job for obvious monetary issues but then there is term insurance or whatever you want to call it. My mom has life insurance on me and my brother but I want to take that over and then of course health insurance is a biggie since my thyroid problems make me have to visit the doctor and get my blood taken frequently since I can never get it regulated. My thyroid is of the devil I swear. My doctor was telling me that I have a bad case of hypothyroidism because in most cases, she can regulate her patients’ levels but with mine they bounce around and cause major side effects. The side effects aren’t glamorous either. I am moody as hell and then there’s the problem with me constantly being tired and then the whole hair shedding issue. I mean, my hair sheds like crazy and it’s annoying. My poor boyfriend has to deal with my moodiness but I’m usually in a good mood around him luckily. I just wish my thyroid would fix itself because I am so tired of this. I’ve struggled with this since I was 12 and I’m just exhausted of it.

Well, I am going to go watch television with the mom. I’m having a shitty thyroid day and my whole body hurts despite the fact I’ve taken my medicine how I’m supposed to and have even gotten up and moved around just to try to get my blood circulating since I woke up feeling crabby but it isn’t working. I feel like crap but I am oddly not in a bad mood. So until next time, later lovelies!

Stupid Allergies!!

Sorry for not blogging lately. I blame it completely on stupid allergies that are stopping my nose up, making my throat hurt, making my eyes water, making me sneeze, and then making my head feel like it’s swimming. I am still working on the new theme. I’m thinking about adding in a theme switcher so I can keep this theme as an option as well since I really do like the colors. I also have yet another theme in the works as well and working on a freebie theme.

I’ve been watching loads of movies lately since going outside makes me feel worse. I’m going to pick some Claritin up at the store and start taking it. Right now, I’m going to go finish watching “Friends With Money” so until next time, later lovelies. And don’t feel neglected, I haven’t even talked to my boyfriend the past four days for more than an hour. That’s an hour total, not an hour a call. I think he’s busy and I haven’t been in the mood to call him. I guess he senses that since the other night he called and we talked like 15 minutes before I told him I just wanted to go to bed. I miss my baby though!

Bad Puppy!

Dear Jackson is in a lot of trouble. My dog has a thing for taking things that isn’t his and chewing it up and then he takes the remains to his “love nest” which is better known as under my bed. The other day I decided to look under there and see just what all he had under there. He had a Barbie doll head, hdmi cables (he’s going to be in BIG trouble about this with my step-dad), random pieces of paper, and an empty pill bottle. The pill bottle was empty to start with thankfully, but still, what is my dog’s problem?! It’s not like he doesn’t get toys to play with. He has about ten tennis balls around the house along with various bones, stuffed animals, and jerky treats so I am unsure of why he keeps doing this. So my lovelies, have any of you had the same problem with your pets and if so, how did you fix the problem?

I just feel bad whenever I get on to him because he crawls into bed and gives me a look like below. This is an older picture and he has developed his sad puppy dog face a lot better but he won’t let me take a picture. He’s too busy playing with the boyfriend and one of his tennis balls. Since the boyfriend is still here and we’re headed to eat dinner, I will cut this short. I just felt like blogging while he was down there playing Guitar Hero and playing catch with Jack.

I’ve got the gift of one-liners

First off, can I just say thank goodness the weather is getting warm again? It is so pretty outside and I think as soon as I get done writing this blog I am going to pop outside and sit on the swing and do a little reading. I love sitting outside and reading because right now there is a slight breeze and under the tree in the front yard it is very shady and allows you to sit out there and not sweat to death.

My mom is feeling under the weather so it was my duty to rally the troops (Nicholas and Selena) to help me do our usual Saturday cleaning routine which basically meant getting the bathroom cleaned, sifting litter boxers, cleaning the living room, and vacuuming the house. The boyfriend is coming up tonight so of course I wanted to hurry and get all of that done instead of waiting until the last moment which I usually do. Ooops, not my fault I detest cleaning. So we’ve already got all of our cleaning done which means the rest of the day we can be lazy little people as usual.

Thursday went pretty well I suppose. Wednesday, Nicholas has practice and he threw up during baseball practice and then later that night he was running a fever so he didn’t get to go on Thursday. It ended up being Selena, Beth, Quincy, the boyfriend, and myself going bowling and then out to eat. We were going to go to a movie but no one really wanted to see a movie. Bowling was fun but I managed to injure myself. I was going up for my turn and wasn’t paying attention and slipped and fell. Not only did I fall, I managed to do a split in the process and thus pulling my upper leg muscles. Way to go Kate. I played it off the best I could because I really didn’t want to appear like a big baby. I actually had to crawl out of the lane and get the boyfriend to help me up because the lane was that slick!!

During our outing, Beth started feeling sick. She didn’t even eat anything at dinner time and that night she was throwing up. So basically Beth and Nicholas were fighting over the bathroom and then later that night my mom ended up getting sick as well. *knocks on wood* I didn’t get sick thankfully because my legs and butt were already hurting. In fact, Friday morning, I could barely move. I moped around the house and even today I am still hurting. It’s okay because I will definitely be sucking it up because the boyfriend is coming up here again. Sadly, we didn’t have home made pizza either but we are having Digiorno tonight along with movie night since people feel like they can actually eat real food again.

He’s bringing Guitar Hero up here for the Wii again. He is seriously addicted to that game. My mom is going to get us a copy and then we’ll have to get the CAT5 or CAT6 cable, whatever it is called, so we can play online against each other. Bring it boyfriend, because I am sure you are not going to like getting your butt kicked by your girlfriend. Heh. Anyways, the swing is calling my name outside so I must go sit outside and enjoy the pretty day. So until next time, later lovelies!