The other day, I was watching 28 days which is about this woman who gets totally wasted at her sister’s wedding, steals a limo, and then wrecks it. She is then given the choice of prison or going to a drug and alcohol rehab center. She obviously picks rehab but refuses to really take part in any of the treatments there at the facility. Finally after getting to know some of the others in the treatment center, she realizes she does have a problem and starts cleaning up her life.

It stars Sandra Bullock who is one of my favorite actresses. The big surprise for me was Viggo Mortensen. I have never found him attractive at all, in fact, one of my old net friends was a major Viggo fan. Jo, the net friend, went on and on about how hot he is but I never saw it until I saw this movie. I must say, maybe Jo was right.

Speaking of old net friends, it’s funny how a movie can make you think of old friends. I’ve come to realize how many friends I have distanced myself from in the past year. I used to enjoy posting at forums and swapping e-mails back and forth with quite a few people but lately, I don’t even want to talk to people. I think all of this started in the last part of mine and my ex’s relationship. It was when the abuse started and I just retreated inside of myself instead of leaning on others for support. I mean, how can you just tell a friend, “oh hey, by the way, my boyfriend abuses me and I feel like a weak, worthless person afterwards,” because that is definitely not something I could work into conversation. I think a lot of my offline friends knew but online it was easier to pretend things were all peachy keen.

In fact, I miss a lot of the people I used to talk to. I still lurk on some boards but I feel afraid to make the first step back into reacquainting myself with them again. There is so much I’d have to explain and it’d leave me feeling raw afterwards. There are so many things in my past I try to just block out and forget. So my question to all you lovelies is have you ever lost contact with someone you really never wanted to lose contact with? If so, have you ever started contact with that person and tried to patch up the relationship? If so, how? I guess I’m tired of being anti-social and after almost a year since the downward spiral also known as my former life started, I’m finally ready to pick up the pieces since I am over it all. I’m ready to move on and be happy and most of this is thanks to the current boyfriend who is more than a boyfriend, he’s a friend.

So anyways, I have a lot of cleaning to do since the boyfriend will be here tonight. I’ve been washing clothes since I had a clothes explosion in my bedroom floor so that is why I have to clean. Grrr. I hate cleaning. So until next time, later lovelies!