It’s amazing how things can suddenly start going good in someone’s life and then they are smacked back to reality. The past few days I’ve spent my nights talking to this guy Travis. No, it’s not like that. We’re friends and I’ve really missed a connection to the opposite sex and evidently he’s it for the time being. I just enjoy talking to him. He’s funny and yes, he is cute, too. Not that it matters though. Lol. When I mentioned that I was talking to a new guy my friends started freaking out. Evidently it scares them for me to be talking to someone because they don’t want to see me end up like I did with the whole C situation. I can tell you 100% that this guy is nothing like C. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. When they worry so much it makes me feel like they think I’m inadequate at making decisions about my life and who I date. I know my track record concerning past boyfriends is not the greatest but honestly I’m not talking to Travis that way. He just makes me smile which I haven’t done in such a long time.

Anyways, today my mom came in my room talking about washing her hair because she found out it was true. I just gave her this blank stare like what’s true!? She told me that my cousin called saying our other cousin committed suicide today and my mom found out it was true. I could not believe that. I am so shell shocked. This lady had kids and grandkids but evidently she had always suffered from depression. I guess depression runs in the family but I still can’t imagine feeling that lost and confused about life to take your life. I guess we’ll find out more about the funeral arrangements tomorrow. Now my mom is worried over my other cousin who has been in the hospital because we’re not sure how she’ll take the news. This cousin has major depression issues and other issues regarding her loser husband and son. I just hope Donna takes things well. Even though she is my mom’s age she is funny and really caring. I love my family. It’s amazing how two years ago I really thought our family was going down the drain since my grandma’s death and when I thought we were getting closer this thing happens with my other cousin. Wow is all I can say.

Thank God I have awesome friends to lean on. I love you guys so much and thank you for listening to me! I’ve realized I have the best friends a girl could ever ask for especially through the whole C thing and then me griping about being single and then griping about wanting to stay single and the list goes on. Ya’ll are truly amazing!