miss-kate.com | What do you do?

What do you do when your life is spiraling out of control and the more you try to get a grasp on it, the faster it spins? That’s how I feel right now. I’ve had all these hopes and dreams and now I feel like none of them are achievable. I wanted to go back to school for Medical Assisting or Dental Assistant but I don’t have any HOPE money left. It used to be that you could only persue one major and then get more upon completion of said major. Now, it’s 90 hours and that’s it. So I obviously used all of mine. I’m really upset about that because I love school and was looking forward to going back and starting over so to say.

I feel like nothing in my life is going right. Me and Court don’t fight that often anymore but when we do, it’s like all hell broke lose and it’s mostly because of me. I’m so hott and cold these days it’s not even funny. I don’t know what I want and when faced with a decision, I don’t know what to do. It’s like the switch to my brain has a faulty plug. I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling so inadequate. I haven’t even updated this site in a while because of it. I want to put up a new theme and do alot of other stuff but I feel like I don’t have the time/energy to do so.

My job is in and out. One day I like it and the next I hate it. I just wish I had some money to do the things I want to do. My job is not paying as much as I’d hoped .. actually it’s almost not paying at all. And I try to stick with it and I feel like if I leave that place, I won’t find anything else. I’ve hit rock bottom and I don’t know what to do about it. I just feel like I need to be by myself so I don’t either a) scream at people because I’m so moody or b) hurt people’s feelings by the awful things that come out of my mouth. I’m turning into a royal bitch.

Sorry to crowd my blog with my whining/complaining but it’s things that I needed to get out and I wanted to post them privately in my Vox/LJ but what good does that do? So I’m posting openly because despite how much I wish it wasn’t true, this is me.. the real me.

Aww, I’m soo sorry to hear about the whole going back to school, thing, Kate! I don’t know what to say about that!! *hugs* Good luck…

Aww, I’m soo sorry to hear about how nothing’s going right! I do know that feelings!! *hugs* Yeah, I know what you mean about going hot and cold a lot lately… I’ve been doing that, and so has my sister… Must be something going around… *hugs*

Aww!! And I’m soo sorry to hear about your job! *hugs* Maybe you can try and find another job while keeping this job?

Anyways, I know EXACTLY what you mean about wanting to keep this entry private, but it really doesn’t do much! It helps letting it out, letting people just read and respond back to you! It really does help, Kate, and I’m glad you’re not keeping it bottled up inside!!

Kate, I really do hope everything goes well with you… I don’t know what else to say because I’ve never experienced something like this before… All I can say is good luck, and I hope that everything will fall into place! *hugs* Take care, Kate!!

Aww *hugs* I’m sad for you hon. But trust me, I go through times like that a lot. I’ve been going through that recently too. Just the indecisisve moody sadness. But you’ll get through it cause you’re my tough chica! Perhaps it’s just time to get a job with the major you graduated with? Make some money and save up for more classes later?

Philip: Well since you ask… We cling unto God when we are stressed down and pressed down, and He always cheers us up

Chette: but if you don’t like Christian stuff… Well you can change your life you know? you can do something in your situation. The reason these problems comes to us because it teaches us something… and once we overcome it we become strong.

Philip: so if you’re bored about our life, start changing your life.. your habits… if you are angry with someone, apologize or make up with him/her (I am telling you… anger won’t resolve anything… or grudges I mean… it will make you worst or feel unpeaceful

It sounds like you’ve been having a difficult time lately. But, just hang in there, and eventually things will get better.

And, you shouldn’t worry about posting about this stuff on your blog…. I mean, its YOUR blog, right?

I know what it feels like to be going through a difficult time. Everyone has them once in a while, and sometimes I feel like I get them more than others.

Basically I try to do simple things, take a walk, wtach my favorite movies, talk to someone I care about. There’s no real way to fix everything that seems wrong in ones life, but it always gets betters

Hope you feel better soon
Oh, blog girl! Its been a while..

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